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And if that weren’t terrible enough already, everyone in Billie’s life, fans included, couldn’t have cared less.īillie spoke about the meaning of “Everything I Wanted” to BBC Radio 1’s Annie Mac and said: “We started writing it because I literally had a dream that I killed myself and nobody cared and all of my best friends and people that I worked with basically came out in public and said, like, ‘Oh, we never liked her.’ In the dream, the fans didn’t care. Here, Billie starts delving into the contents of her nightmare and confesses to the listener that she “stepped off the Golden”-aka San Francisco’s Golden Gate Bridge-to die by suicide.

Kinda thought they might care (might care, might care) Nobody cried (cried, cried, cried, cried) “I’ll go through a month where I’ll have the same nightmare every single night-a dream that’s so bad that the whole day is off or a dream that’s so good that none of it’s true.” “Dreams are a really intense part of my life,” she said. In an interview with The Fader, Billie explained the role that her dreams play in her life.


Thankfully, it was just a dream, but it’s a painful reminder that Billie, despite her superstar status, is still a human being who has her own personal experiences with mental health issues.īefore you go ahead and blast this song before the timely hour of sad b*tch o’clock, allow me to decode these lyrics for you so you can truly understand the way Billie was feeling when she wrote it.īillie Eilish Got a Mullet After a Hair Accident ¯\_(ツ)_/¯īehind the song’s twinkling piano keys and wavering, melancholic synth instrumentals, Billie grapples with her sudden fame and opens up about a terrifying nightmare she had about dying by suicide. In case you haven’t been up to date on the music cycle, know that your favorite pop enigma Billie Eilish is currently up for three (3) Grammy Awards tonight in the Best Pop Solo Performance, Song and Record of the Year categories for her tear-jerking song “Everything I Wanted”-guess it left the members of the Recording Academy sobbing in a puddle of tears too. Standout moment “all my tears are fucking black” mixes trap beats with a light UK drill flourish and screamo moments, whereas opening number “wear me out” and gothic-trap stylings of “i could be your goddess” are defined by brooding synths and the singer’s classically airy vocals.Trigger warning: This post contains mentions of suicide. Several years in the making, 'manic pixie nightmare' is represented by six well-received singles released independently by the artist over the last two years, which have since clocked up over 2M+ streams and counting. Her signature brand of genre-bending conceptions cohesively brings her artistry together for a truly unique sonic You know that, that it don’t make it rightĭark goth-pop pixie CASHFORGOLD marks a defining moment in herĬareer with the independent release of her debut album 'manic pixie nightmare',a thirteen-track musical voyage through relationships, identity and discovery over a bed of witch-house, future garage and electro-chill production. You know that you’ll just bring our kingdom down You know that Ill just bring your kingdom down Imma spark your lighter but we're not allowed When you can't hide from yourself anymore
